The holidays this year have brought me so many mixed emotions. At times I flash back to last year....living in silence through all the holidays with my breast cancer secret. It was agonizing. I don't know how I got through each day. I was filled with fear, anxiety, bad thoughts and more. I carried the burden of not telling my family and friends until after the holidays that I had breast cancer. I had such anxiety over how I would tell people, what I would say and how they would take my news. I just wanted to scream "I have cancer" to get it over with, but I just couldn't.
Now I sit back and think about last year at this time and what a different place I am in now. I am grateful for that. Life is better....a lot better. I feel like I am actually getting my life back. I feel good and have energy. I am happy. I never thought I would get here. I guess I can officially say "breast cancer won't define me" and believe it. It has taken such a long time to get to this place in my mind and life. It is well deserved.
This year I had a better Christmas!!!
I am happy to hear that you overcome the pain and having a better life. I hope you have great Christmas the coming years too. Your courage is a great inspiration.
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