Yes, I read there can be constipation from chemotherapy and I asked all kinds of questions in advance so I could avoid this unfortunate situation. I asked "can I take a laxative on the day of chemo?" and I was told, "you shouldn't do that - you may not have any issues". Blah, blah, blah......why do I listen to these people?
So not so bright, but very early this morning (5:45am), I was suffering in agony in the bathroom on the toilet. (Yes, this is too much information but then again I have no modesty anymore after getting breast cancer so I don't care). I had to poop so bad but could not go. I felt like I had rocks in my colon. Ugh! It was awful. There I sat, in the dark, moaning as I was literally full of shit! I had to get my husband out of bed and send him to the pharmacy for another Fleets Enema at 5:45am! OMG! Thank goodness the pharmacy is only 2 miles away!
I waited and waited for him to come back like I was waiting for a present or something good - that's how desperate I was! I was actually looking forward to the enema! Lord help me. I was full of shit!
Once I was no longer full of shit, it was a relief. Good lord....these nurses should just tell people to take a laxative, PERIOD! I normally suffer from IBS with diarrhea....can you imagine how someone that is normally constipated would have been in this situation!?!?! All I know is that I don't plan on being "full of shit" after the next chemo. I am taking a laxative and I don't care what anyone says. Oh and by the way...those stool softeners are worthless - FYI. I took those for 2 days with no luck.
Other than the poop issue, I am still OK post chemo. I am sore from the good workout I did on my legs yesterday at the gym (ouch!) and did not sleep too good from the tissue expander fill from yesterday. I am tired because of that, but don't really feel ill from the chemo yet. I have been hungry, but nothing sounds good. I have been eating toast, pasta and pretzels. I don't feel nausea at all or have a bad taste in my mouth. I just can't think of any food that actually sounds good to eat. I have no idea what I am going to have for dinner...but I am hungry again! I am going to force some more water down because it is good for me, right?
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
Quote:
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Saturday, March 5, 2011
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