Today is my birthday...yes, I turned 46 (ouch!)! I am officially closer to 50 than 40 now and that freaks me out. I don't feel 46. I think I am only 35 really.
Earlier this week my husband asked me "what do you want to do on your birthday?". I said "nothing...I don't want to be a year older." Today though, I marveled at being a year older. Having a birthday is a gift after breast cancer. Each birthday I have will mark another year of being cancer free, alive and well. There is something to be said for that given what the last 9 months have been like for me.
So today, I actually woke up and felt GOOD about my birthday. I am glad to be a year older. What a blessing. After working out and having a nice big brownie after lunch I showered and decided it was time I looked like the "old me" again. For the first time since February I used a blow dryer and styled my hair with the flat iron like I use to before breast cancer (with the Cold Cap protocol, you can't use hair dryers or flat irons). It felt so good to actually style my hair! I use to hate blow drying my long hair because it took so long, but today I enjoyed it! I actually look like myself again which was THE BEST birthday present I could have. Today I am counting my years and my blessings.
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Friday, September 23, 2011
Birthdays have a whole new meaning
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