This week it will be 9 months since I was diagnosed. In some ways, time has gone so slow, but in other ways it has gone by so fast. I sit hear thinking about something I said to a friend a long time ago. I mentioned that going through this is kind of like being pregnant. You make many sacrifices and go through changes but at the end of the 9 months there is something to look forward to. Obviously with being pregnant, it would be a beautiful baby. With breast cancer it is being done with treatment and a "birth" of a new life - your life but cancer free.
I can't believe it has actually been 9 months. I feel like the 9 months of breast cancer seemed far longer than the 9 months of being pregnant, but then again I was actually one of those women that felt good being pregnant and liked it. I certainly did not "like" the breast cancer "pregnancy". Blech! Instead of a "glow" and long flowing hair like a real pregnancy, I had a pale, sick look with thinning hair. Oh and with pregnancy there is weight gain while with breast cancer there is weight loss. I guess in both cases, my boobs got bigger (which is a benefit!).
Out of my breast cancer, a new life was born. Now I move forward trying to understand this new life, the life of a woman that HAD breast cancer. For now it is gone from my body, but how do I make it disappear from my mind? That is the daily struggle at this point. It's a whole new journey. I know it is a process and as I have learned in the last 9 months, time changes things. I hope with the next 9 months it brings me less focused on breast cancer and more focused on the wonderful life I DO have.
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
Giving Birth To A New Life
Labels: Breast Cancer
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