This week it will be 9 months since I was diagnosed. In some ways, time has gone so slow, but in other ways it has gone by so fast. I sit hear thinking about something I said to a friend a long time ago. I mentioned that going through this is kind of like being pregnant. You make many sacrifices and go through changes but at the end of the 9 months there is something to look forward to. Obviously with being pregnant, it would be a beautiful baby. With breast cancer it is being done with treatment and a "birth" of a new life - your life but cancer free.
I can't believe it has actually been 9 months. I feel like the 9 months of breast cancer seemed far longer than the 9 months of being pregnant, but then again I was actually one of those women that felt good being pregnant and liked it. I certainly did not "like" the breast cancer "pregnancy". Blech! Instead of a "glow" and long flowing hair like a real pregnancy, I had a pale, sick look with thinning hair. Oh and with pregnancy there is weight gain while with breast cancer there is weight loss. I guess in both cases, my boobs got bigger (which is a benefit!).
Out of my breast cancer, a new life was born. Now I move forward trying to understand this new life, the life of a woman that HAD breast cancer. For now it is gone from my body, but how do I make it disappear from my mind? That is the daily struggle at this point. It's a whole new journey. I know it is a process and as I have learned in the last 9 months, time changes things. I hope with the next 9 months it brings me less focused on breast cancer and more focused on the wonderful life I DO have.
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