The holidays this year have brought me so many mixed emotions. At times I flash back to last year....living in silence through all the holidays with my breast cancer secret. It was agonizing. I don't know how I got through each day. I was filled with fear, anxiety, bad thoughts and more. I carried the burden of not telling my family and friends until after the holidays that I had breast cancer. I had such anxiety over how I would tell people, what I would say and how they would take my news. I just wanted to scream "I have cancer" to get it over with, but I just couldn't.
Now I sit back and think about last year at this time and what a different place I am in now. I am grateful for that. Life is better....a lot better. I feel like I am actually getting my life back. I feel good and have energy. I am happy. I never thought I would get here. I guess I can officially say "breast cancer won't define me" and believe it. It has taken such a long time to get to this place in my mind and life. It is well deserved.
This year I had a better Christmas!!!
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Sunday, December 25, 2011
A Better Christmas
Labels: Breast Cancer
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I am happy to hear that you overcome the pain and having a better life. I hope you have great Christmas the coming years too. Your courage is a great inspiration.ReplyDelete