My hair continues to shed...blech! I am so sick of the crazy shedding that is going on right now. Somehow I thought by now (6 weeks after completing chemo) things would feel more normal in the hair department. But, I was wrong.....
I had horrible "hair envy" at the gym today. I saw a woman with beautiful, silky, thick, long dark brown hair and I just wanted to push her off the elliptical!!! (just for a split second....I didn't actually act on my horrible thought). For the past 6 months I have been obsessed with boobs and hair....something needs to stop the madness of this, really.
After I had that moment of hair envy and severe hair jealousy, I walked away and thought to myself....."I bet there are lots of women that just completed chemo that have hair envy of me right now". I felt better. No, my hair is not pretty right now or thick and luscious, but it is is THERE and it is MY hair. I am going to be grateful for that as I pick off every strand that continues to fall today......(as the shedding continues). I keep going to sleep every night and telling myself "tomorrow the shedding will start to lighten up". I am trying to remain optimistic but I have been saying that for over a week now.........getting kind of sick of saying it and it not happening. Enough already with the shedding....ENOUGH!!!
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Labels: Breast Cancer
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