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Thursday, March 3, 2011

The day after my first chemo

Hard to believe, but it was just like any other day today.  I don't know what I expected, but so far so good.  I know all days may not be like today, but today felt great.  I was up early at my usual time, 6:30am to get my son ready for school.  Once he was out the door I had a healthy breakfast along with 3 large glasses of water.  I hit the gym an did the elliptical for 40 minutes and even used my arms the whole time.  I did all my rehabilitation stretches and then ran some errands.  I had lunch - organic chicken and veggie soup with a few more glasses of water and then went to physical therapy.  My therapist is starting me on a lot more light weight training which is nice.  I could really feel my muscles working and that felt great.  I went to the medical oncologist office and had my neulasta shot (to stimulate white blood cells) which was not fun.  That shot burns!  Ick!  I went to the mall and treated myself to a Pandora ring.  They have some assorted rings that are all different that you can just stack on one finger.  I decided before chemo that I would buy one for myself after each of my four chemo sessions.  Today I could not wait to go out and buy my first one!  I love it and am wearing it now. Here is the link to my new ring:


I also dropped $170 at Aveda getting all natural make up and some hair styling gel I can use during the cold cap process.  Wow is that store pricey!  I guess when you can't have products that contain sulfates, parabens or metals you have to pay the price to get stuff!  Oh well.  I know I need to make these changes to be as healthy as I can so it's worth it.  Then I realized it was time to pick up my son from school.

I had a full day.  A great day!  I can't believe it!  I imagined myself waking up barfing and being exhausted.  I know that this can still happen and maybe in the next few days I won't feel so good, but it was nice to feel just like myself today.  I keep telling myself over and over again "I am not going to have all of those side effects.  I don't plan on being sick or losing my hair".  I am going to keep saying this and I am sticking to it!  That's just the way it is.  I am going to keep pushing myself to be healthy and strong.  That's what will get me through this.


  1. I am absolutely devoted to your blog. My boss and I fear that my chemo will force us to shut down her shop as we are the sole producers, but I showed her this blog post and we are greatly encouraged.
    I am so focused on keeping my hair. Your blog and your posts on the board at breastcancer.org lift my spirits and give me a hope.
    Before this, I'm not exaggerating, I was feeling like crawling into a ball and going away....
    Now, I have drive! I have a mission! I will keep my hair!
    Thank you...again and again

  2. Sissy - BC is no fun and it is scary too, but it doesn't have to be as horrible as some people make it. Take it one day at a time and take treatment one step at a time. I think the things that got me through chemo so well were keeping my hair (a sense of privacy and normalcy), exercise (it helped emotionally and physically), keeping life as normal as possible and having family/friends that supported me. You WILL get through this! You can do it.... Hugs! Good luck!