Yes, I read there can be constipation from chemotherapy and I asked all kinds of questions in advance so I could avoid this unfortunate situation. I asked "can I take a laxative on the day of chemo?" and I was told, "you shouldn't do that - you may not have any issues". Blah, blah, blah......why do I listen to these people?
So not so bright, but very early this morning (5:45am), I was suffering in agony in the bathroom on the toilet. (Yes, this is too much information but then again I have no modesty anymore after getting breast cancer so I don't care). I had to poop so bad but could not go. I felt like I had rocks in my colon. Ugh! It was awful. There I sat, in the dark, moaning as I was literally full of shit! I had to get my husband out of bed and send him to the pharmacy for another Fleets Enema at 5:45am! OMG! Thank goodness the pharmacy is only 2 miles away!
I waited and waited for him to come back like I was waiting for a present or something good - that's how desperate I was! I was actually looking forward to the enema! Lord help me. I was full of shit!
Once I was no longer full of shit, it was a relief. Good lord....these nurses should just tell people to take a laxative, PERIOD! I normally suffer from IBS with diarrhea....can you imagine how someone that is normally constipated would have been in this situation!?!?! All I know is that I don't plan on being "full of shit" after the next chemo. I am taking a laxative and I don't care what anyone says. Oh and by the way...those stool softeners are worthless - FYI. I took those for 2 days with no luck.
Other than the poop issue, I am still OK post chemo. I am sore from the good workout I did on my legs yesterday at the gym (ouch!) and did not sleep too good from the tissue expander fill from yesterday. I am tired because of that, but don't really feel ill from the chemo yet. I have been hungry, but nothing sounds good. I have been eating toast, pasta and pretzels. I don't feel nausea at all or have a bad taste in my mouth. I just can't think of any food that actually sounds good to eat. I have no idea what I am going to have for dinner...but I am hungry again! I am going to force some more water down because it is good for me, right?
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Full of shit....literally
Labels: Breast Cancer
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