I am agonizing of the "chemo or not to chemo" question and just thought a second opinion would help out in some way. I decided to call the first cancer center I had seen (where I was diagnosed) and see if I could meet with a medical oncologist. After passing me around on the phone for a long time, I was told I could not see a medical oncologist until mid-March. Are you kidding me? I told her "well I would need to be treated before then if I am having chemo". Ugh....as if having cancer isn't bad enough, they want you to wait and have another two months of anxiety over chemo or no chemo. Yes, I do realize that they would not start chemo until 5-6 weeks from now (4 weeks after my surgery and my surgery is next week), but it doesn't mean I want to ponder that dilemma and question it for the next two months while I recover from a major surgery that is also emotional. Talk about torture!
I have been dealing with two cancer centers on my journey and I can say there is a distinct difference on how I am being treated at both of them. The center I have chosen to go with is so thorough, compassionate and goes out of there way to give me time to ask questions it's incredible. The other one is always a hassle. It was like trying to create world peace or something when I called to get copies of my films. You would have thought I was asking for them to do something impossible. While I love the center I am having treatment at, I am just not sure what to do about chemo. I really thought hearing another medical oncologists opinion may help solidify my decision in some way. I guess now I must seek a second opinion from a well respected hospital that is not a national cancer institute in my area because it's the only option. At least they can get me in for an appointment in two days. I guess I have nothing to lose, right?
I would love to go to another national cancer institute for a second opinion, but it's just not possible to travel out of town at this point since my surgery is next week. I do have the option of having a second opinion on the pathology by mail through John Hopkins. I am not sure that will give me the answer I am looking for since I really want to discuss treatment.
I have said it a ton of times on my blog....this is SO hard! I know I am searching for answers to questions no one can answer - even the qualified medical oncologists. It is such a frustrating component to this whole situation. I keep praying to God each day that there will be some sign that will let me know what to do. I keep praying for one bit of information that makes my decision just a little easier. I guess that is a lot to ask for, hu?
I am a wife, a mom, a sister, a daughter, a neice, an aunt and a friend. I never thought I would hear the words "It's not good. There are cancer cells". December 8, 2010 changed my life forever. This is my scary, long, enlightening journey through breast cancer. I hope that my words help others facing a similar situation or those that love someone going through breast cancer. I don't know where the road in front of me leads, but I know that Breast Cancer won't define me.
"Don't spend time worrying about how you are going to die. Worry about how you are going to live today"
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
Wait 2 months for 2nd opinion....NOT!
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